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You'll remember me when the west wind moves, among the fields of barley
You can tell the sun in his jealous sky, when we walked in fields of gold. In his arms she fell as her hair came down, Among the fields of gold |
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many people walk in and out of our lives we cant catch hold of all of them. we just have to treasure all that we can. hmm, felt so tired today. haha, but yeah, immediately felt better after chinese class. well, coz the problem is settled. and i feel much at ease. (: chinese mid years oral was quite screwed up. argh. the conversation about the singapore policy 2 years ago is rather tough. and nervousness caused me to stumble upon my reading. i probably wont do as well as i did last year. =X ok thats it! (: because of you, i am afraid.
bedok reservoir sunset.  TK vs NEWTON. (away game)  SRC - RI vs (ancient school)  SRC - NANYANG vs DHS  ECP!  the 28 faces on our class jersey.   physics course.   water-sloshed (:   sandcastles at ECP.     the beach.     the sky. what's up there?  today at bedok stadium.   thats it. haha. random.
what a day. woke up early at 7++ and then met joyce, sherlynn and lilin at bedok stadium. well, we were going to practice for this friday. you must be thinking: crazy! yeah, thats was what we felt too. like it is a sunday morning where you can sleep to your heart's content but the 4 of us are out there, running... haha, but the stadium was packed too anyway, so we arent the only 'crazy' ones. we all had hardly any energy to run. well, perhaps its just the morning blues, whereby lethagic-ness is the one possessing you. yeah, but nevertheless, we still did our runs in that early sunday morning. ran a few 400m(s). and yeah, we all "retired". after which, lilin and joyce left, leaving sherlynn and i. we headed for breakfast. and it was just 10am. yup. and so it was just eating and talking with sherlynn. haha well, everyone has their problems in life, in school, with people and even families. so we just talked and talked and split up for our own destinations. -headed to vivi's house for chem project. nice yunshan came so late. we both practically spent 2 hours waiting for her. but honestly, meanwhile.. vivi and i.. WE DID NOTHING! hahahahaxD we just talked a lot. and we found out a lot of stuff bout each other we never knew. right. filming for chem was really fun. its just too crazy (so obviously got a lot of NGs). but finally its done. beverly didnt turn up again. well, we'll fulfill her wish to fail this component with a zero. freeloaders are not welcomed. alright, thats bout it. i'll CONSIDER posting the videos of chem. but maybe not. too embarrassing. haha(: the triggering factors.
great, feeling ever tired for school today. never felt so wronged in my whole life. THE WORST NIGHTMARE. and 3e9 is indeed infuriating also. thanks vi! for today(: its been awhile since i have really went to relax. argh, nothing much to say.just looking forward to sunday coz we're doing chem project and also, going to meet the 400m relay people to run(: things up in the upcoming week: 1. SS test 2. chinese oral for mid-years. 3. SPORTS DAY ON FRI! & actually i realised that i am not really a busy person if i know how to organise my time and IF i am willing to give people my time. hahahaxD thats it then. btw, speak for yourself. right. this is somewhat gonna be a lengthy post. i really love the radio, keeping me company through my sleepless nights. and yeah, yesterday, was trying to learn my ting xie (eh, for once la! never bothered to study ting xie at all). and at 11.15pm, my mum was chasing me to sleep. and yeah, i cant, like usual. as for today, yeah, good and horrible. C Div game was cancelled due to the rain. physics workshop was kind of good. and we're going for the competition thanks to our performance today. i dont know if its a good thing though. but i shall assume it is for now. and that stupid thing that happened. had the longest walk home i ever had. took a longer yet deserted road. i just didnt want anyone to see the weak side of me. i just wanted to be alone, think of the things that had happened. yeah, maybe it was my fault. but i dont feel that i have done any wrong. i tried my best. and yeah, everything is MY fault. what kind of logic is that? yeah, i know that because of my post and that i am the oldest child in the family, parents, teachers and classmates have high expectations of me. but i am just like anyone. i am human. i cant handle EVERYTHING. right. i'll get going. study for Amath test tomorrow.
i just feel happy now somehow. many things are cleared and the load and the burden in me has decreased(: chem project done, class tees settled somehow (thanks danielle). Amath CA is coming up and i am so NOT nervous. something's wrong. argh, i am missing juniors' game again tomorrow thanks to physics workshop. dreading it so much now. (i wanna go for game!!!!) and training today is good. well, taught the sec1s again. now i really have to admit, its a tough batch. no sportsmanship (some of em') and the rest, not serious at all. i swear that the next time they start fooling around, i'd set a punishment. being nice is gonna spoil them. and you, dont try to act so smart when you aint got a clue. if i were in your shoes, i'd shut right up. dont act like as if you have played your part in all that you should have done. you did NOTHING at all. i hate your arrogance. i hate it when you dont put an effort into listening to class and start asking me stupid questions after it. dont make your brains redundant, use it - the right way. you're falling behind time and YOU SHOULD WAKE UP and save yourself. thats it then. time heals all wounds. -but not too well.
good thing i manage to go to school today. feeling well enough. slept quite well too, (coz i slept early yesterday.) oh there's something i remember. mr seah calls out to yap, "eh YAP!" mr yap answers, "what SEAH(sia)?" lol. the joke that was cracked during physics course yesterday. yeah. school's okay. some people just like to test others' patience. but i warn you against it. you'll never know the consequences of our limits. watch out. training is fine. and there is something wrong with the processing of my mind. haha. and there's training tomorrow. raymond's class was good too. quite slack. and when he saw me reading my copy of reader's digest, weiwen said "haiyo, i see you, you everytime read book." --''' alright then. there's nothing more. there's confidence to gain. there's direction to achieve towards.
losing my sleep over things i shouldnt be worrying about. the way how some things haunt my mind, its merciless. oh well, as usual, an sleep last night, until it was way past 12. didnt have a good sleep either. it was so cold and the funniest thing was that i dreamt i was in a place with this real cold winter season and i woke up shivering. ha-ha. school was fine at the start. .. .. .. at the start. then this throbbing headache surfaced. not those normal ones. this headache is one that makes you feel as though your brain has ben squeezed out. and any slight movement of the head, it makes you so giddy. SUAY ME. fell right asleep on a chair after reaching home. felt extremely weak. and now... so much still to complete. and this headache, still throbbing. sigh. i want to go to school tomorrow. i dont want to miss lessons. =X
enjoyed the trip yesterday. but yeah, another taste of anger and frustration today. ALL THANKS TO THAT COPYLAB. slept around 2am last night, yet woke up early JUST to go to copylab. shall not elaborate further. and yeah, different people have different ways to relief anger. mine... sorry and thanks vivi(: tiring day. fell asleep doing abit of math in the afternoon. haha. argh. one problem settled, another one surfaced. how nice. -SCREWED- i hatehatehatehatehatehate today.
slept late once again. but i was in this relatively good mood yesterday i volunteered to help vivi with her chem online research. haha.(: then this morning, TIRED>>> school was alright. just got kind of frustrated with people's WHINING and yeah, when people try boasting about their results OR dont cooperate with their project groups. its quite irritating. and yeah, makes me feel quite bad since my results are really... HORRIBLE. nvm, i'll study MUCH harder. no more disappointment for me(: and yeah, i'll really make people in the class who cant hand in their SFE forms on monday write a 100o-word reflection. and yeah, training was really.. somewhat fun i shall say. coz all i did was to coach the sec1s and the new VJ people. haha. so its just training them and playing games abit. hmm, not bad. and now.... i'll look forward to tomorrow. she's coming at 9am. LOL. and yeah, lets hope it'll be a good day to enjoy. i'm gonna sleep earlier today i hope. but i just love the radio at night. it's so funny i'll find myself laughing out loud. --''' alright then, thats it. over you. but not the memories.
another fast day, a day with subjects just maths and sciences, and PE. yup, the day sure went fast. chinese remedial is ok.. laoshi's very funny, but yeah, her lessons are somewhat boring i can fall asleep. then training.. dont need to say. just warmed up, then coach said that i can go back. coz it was raining and there wasnt much that could be done. so my training's tomorrow instead, teach the sec1s. hmm.. alright. shall complete all the admin work for school since there isnt any homework today. thats all(:
the shadow of the day by: linkin park. everytime we touch by: cascada. right, this ISNT a permanent favourite. the 5ooth post! (: slept past 12 yesterday. just couldnt get to sleep and so, lying down, i just tuned in to the radio, listen to whatever i can till i fall asleep. and today's quite a tiring day. had quite a foul mood. nothing that ever happened seems to help. i hate it when you start whining. i hate it when you start making a huge fuss. i hate it when you're so self centered. -but you always are, sadly. anger management - thats what i need. and being alone. i need peace. there's so much i want to catch up on. i want to do well for my papers. i want to score. and i'll do whatever it takes. alright, huge and urgent need to rush through a lot of work. thats it then. i will succeed, one day, somehow. and i'll prove it to you.
had this fever yesterday and thus missed SRC. oh well. and i finally cut my hair. alright, its not THAT short. but its feels lighter whenever i run. so it feels pretty good, though its a little screwed to me. school passed fast today. so its quite alright. and, training was quite good too. only helped meg with the sec1s. they're quite a tough batch to teach, as they have.. PRETTY INTERESTING personalities. (well, some.) and hmm, i musnt forget to help prepare the notes thingy for them, or coach will come after me. free day tomorrow!(: thats it then. reminiscence. not a good idea. slept at 2.30++ am last night. and i had the weirdest dream in my whole life. totally wrong. it'll never happen that way. -and i am so NOT obsessed la vivi. alright. after game, had to rush home for something, then met vivi and wl to go ecp. then met mel, chloe, kelly, ying and huiwen. haha, somehow just love softballers' hyperness at times(: hahahahahahaha. all right. thats it. i'm so tired. no, i am so not obsessed. i am not. and i musnt be. well finally one morning where there is the sun and the heat, but still, the cold wind. right, yesterday.. quite eventful. firstly, my second sis was actually helping me to hold all my completed history essays that i have done for homework. 4 in total. or was it 3? well anyway, she was holding it for me. and as you know, it was a rainy day yesterday. THEN, SHE HAD TO DROP MY HARD-DONE HISTORY ESSAYS ON THE DRAIN. though not IN the drain, it got wet. yeah, my heart really fell, and i had to recopy everything out on dry sheets of foolscap. my dad bought this apple com for my room. and yeah, i am using it now(: its REALLY FAST and stable. haha. well, i know this year's gonna be a tough one ahead as it has already been so far. but i wont let it get me down. i'll fight head on. i wont give it a chance. and also, you and you.. i wont let anyone get me down. >>& our dreams will take us where we want to go.
but i guess i dont regret it at all. or do i? alright, slept around 2 last night just to complete raymond's work for today. its super last minute la. then woke up early to go to teshura's house all the way at pasir panjang. and its really far. but i guess its alright.(: right, then after that, went for raymond's extra class. which was 3 hours today, combining with the 'tuakong' branch people. so yeah, his class was quite packed. and i realised that 4 of those people were from TK. the 'tuakong' people were this noisy bunch whose voices filled the whole room i can hardly concentrate in math. then afterwhich i made my way to tampines. . . . . . . i HATE it most when.. 1. my parents take me along with them to places i have no business in and dont want to go - to waste my time when i could have done something else more constructive. 2. people use praises that arent genuine to humour me. SHUT UP! 3. when my parents say that i think that thye dont understand me what they think that they do but they actually DONT. or rather, people acting like as if they know/understand me so well when they actually DONT. 4. people ask nonsensical questions and dont use their brains. what are brains for then?! 5. people pry into whatever that i am doing when its no business of theirs. 6. people have biased viewpoints. 7. people want others to compromise to their ideas when they themselves wont compromise to other's. 8. someone brings your hopes so high, then thrash it all the way down so abrubtly. just like the way you do. an interesting, yet weird dream. the english group people came over at 11 and yeah, we did our work. afterwhich ying came over also and we played games and also, after the rest left, we watched this video, which was definitely a wrong decision. the EPIC MOVIE. it was M18. and it s so..... argh. i cant stand the sight of those.. and yeah, everything just grosses me out. (though we did have a good laugh) "i am Jack SWALLOWS!" LOL. and sorry to hold you up at my house too. walked ying to the mrt station. what a cold night, walking back alone. good thing i have my windbreaker. and while i was walking back home, this unknown person cycled past and said "hi,good evening" and smiled at me. i dont even know that guy. --''' oh well, finally grasped physics(: it didnt seem to affect you that much when it was us. now, it seems to have affect you so much. is there anything i can do? That yearning. I miss my rabbits. yeah, havent really been using the com for the past few days thanks to some problem with the com. with blogger, and messenger. argh. alright, its a monday, and there are still loads of homework undone. crap. and well, i had quite a good sleep and woke up only at 9.45 today. lol. and theres training. but training was fine today, coz of the cooling weather. and i was feeling really happy on my way back home that i was practically skipping in the slight drizzle(: right. time for more homework. thats it. i'll be here, if you ever need me. (but i doubt you ever do.) 那些回忆我忘不了 那份情意永埋在心低. wellwell, today is a nice day. i like the song mdm lenny thought us for graphical formulas(: the tune of entertainer. haha.. NO TRAINING! xD and yeah, CC thing was real slack. we played games and more games, and our team consisted of 3e9-ners and 4e9-ners(they were really funny. and hyper ventilated). then after that, went to singpost with vivi and jinyi. THE BIG TALK. hahahahahahxD went to my mum's workplace. and i was so tired that the moment i put my bag on the floor and just sat down, i fell asleep. i woke up in this horribly awkward position with my head resting on my knees 2 hours later (woken by my mum.) i can bet that if she doesnt wake me up, i'll be able to sleep like that even till tomorrow morning. LOL. well, i'm just real tired these days. and my left eye increased by 25 degrees. so its 75 degrees for both eyes. gonna change my specs(: but i dont think it'll look much of a diff anyway. HOLIDAYS ARE HERE but more homework and more homework. wow-. i see happier days ahead. more smiles, more laughter. -anything i'll do to forget. finally broke that record yesterday. slept at 11+ instead of past twelve as it has been for the past few night. BUT, this morning was still quite a tiring one. hah. but somehow, i like today. i'm in such a good mood now(i dont know why) and so, decided so visit the com. the weather is good today, and so was the game against Newtown Sec. 15-0. coach was happy too and everyone was fooling around in the field. LOL. but i am sosososososo tired. i need sleep, but i just cant. yeah, good that its friday tomorrow(: no training coz i have cleared mine and that its almost a free day, apart from the CC thing after school, but that doesnt matter coz you go to play. --''' and SRC games are just this week. its not that i dont want to play. i dont want to screw, i dont want to make mistakes during the game, i dont want that spinning ball coming for me. i dont want to get hit ever again coz it just makes me sick and hate the ball even more. yet, i want to play.. play it well. i need confidence. but where has it gone to? and SRC games are public. sheesh. alright thats it. its a right choice, to give my studies priority in my life for now. i like the satisfication it fills me with and the relief it brings to my parents. haha. and i like me being happy, smiling. 曾经问过自己, 難到你是我生命中的過客? ...看来就是! school was good today. coz there were 2 free periods at least. haha. and yeah, zoe said i have no life coz i have classes. and she got quite shocked when i replied that classes are my life. haha. well, not that i am obsessed with classes or studying. nah. its just, i really enjoy raymond's classes. haha. and there's SRC this weekend and probably the next. crap, i dont want to screw anything. and i dont want to miss class. sheesh. and yeah, today would have been a good day if not for the zuowen. argh.. mood spoiler. perhaps i have decided to face the facts. you gross me out. the world's biggest fool will never be one ever again. another cold school day. another horrible night. and i overslept this morning. i need to control myself, and stop giving myself excuses. i am falling into the bottomless pit of this whole jinxed life. where am i now? oh great. finally found the perfect layout for a change. quite bored with the current layout and i am definitely pleased i found a new one. but its codes are a little complicated so help is needed. hmm. the worst night, the saddest dream. the slackiest morning. the craziest feelings.. the madness moods. right. i am a horrible person, leading a horrible life. i am making the people around me upset just because i myself am. whats wrong with me? nothing much. gonna do some homework. you took the sun, moon and stars from the sky around me together with your departure. went to raymond's at 11am so i could ask him to teach me more math before class officially started. so yeah.. math all the way from 11am till 2.30pm. and even more of self work while waiting for yunshan. and wow. nice yunshan. got me to wait for you for 2hours after my class and then, dont know how to get to your destination. wasted time eh. haha.. great i might just stop coming online. coming online is an agony. ouch. no more. i have to get over it. i am just lying to myself, giving myself false hopes. and it just makes me feel worse. what for? |
